So the news is that the guy who was after B is on his merry way to prison. Not enough people watch A&E chances are if you kill someone you could be caught! all i know is that I’m relieved!

In advance forgive me for this blog.. its all over the place
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Saturday I’m going to this party that ebony is having i haven’t seen her in a year and i got my invite via my grandma which is sad as hell the only reason I’m going is so i can drink up all their alcohol and stare at asses and cleavage! say whatever you want about me but I wont be feeling no kinda way about my actions! I helped my cousin out with her book this week and I realized that I’m just an awkward slightly creepy person dude I was so quite in the ride to her house I kinda creeped my damn self out. I love them but i just don’t hang out with them all like that so I found it painful to try and act like I’m this social butterfly.

Today I got a super random call from a friend of mine whom i haven’t heard from in a few months He lives here in Cleveland and was what I considered to be a very good friend, we hung out told hella jokes was on our Amanda & Marc shit (Ugly Betty). Then him and Gwanii fell out and rightfully so She noticed that he was only staying in contact with her when it benefited him. Then I caught on because he was so damn needy all of a sudden And well today he called me because he was stuck on the freeway and needed a listening ear I answered the phone and instantly frowned after I heard the words “im stuck on the freeway” Why cant you just call me and say ” Hey buddy how have you been?” “hows Life?” -sighes- after the time where i told his girlfriend that he was a good dude KNOWING damn well he cheated on her several times, or just doing little things for him that inconvenienced me and All I get is a call when ur stranded or u need me to check yo email… bitch die on it. At least with Gwanii I know where I stand.
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Santogold & The Ting Tings on the braaain

I’m sooo in love with this chick Santogold right now. My home boy says I have some odd taste in music and at this moment I’m probably proving his point. (i had a crazy wet dream about him a few nights ago that involved us doing the nasty in every room in the house… i cried) But whatever! lol I’ve been listening to Santogold and The Ting Tings all week, I love My zune.. I do hate the social still I got mass msgs the other night because I changed my icon to the “Leave Britney Alone” t shirt I think someone cursed me out in Spanish…

Where do I start… I’m not sure if I want to make this a protected entry or not I might leave it open for a few days then put up the password whatever. Today was stressful Bj is in some trouble that could cost him his life. His brother recently went to jail he was supposed to get 5 years but is only serving one. Somehow people came to the conclusion that hmm he got his sentence reduced he must have snitched on someone. B’s name was added some some “list” i guess this would be a list of people who have harm coming to them in the near future. Some one who was on this list was killed a few nights ago.

Me and my grand mother are just now finding out about this. I was upset because everyone is thinking of themselves which is fine the first law of nature is self preservation do u save urself. But these people KNOW where B lives lol like it would be nice if we know this because he lives with us! My Life MY LIFE! His mother came and got him though and now he’s temporarily living with her… i dunno I’m running on E and I cant think straight.

Minus that, Other pending migraines are on the horizon. I’m working on some stuff for myspace.com/proton2 and i need creative strength because I’m trying to incorporate myself into my work but also give them what they want and I’m just drowning in this one. Not to mention myspace band pages are coded differently i cannot for the life of me get the contact tables to work! ugh!